Tag Archives: insomnia
13 July 2009: Insomnia
2 AM—steroid insomnia Or insomnia of another sort of course Statistics & mastectomy pictures Reconstruction, Tamoxifen, Michigan Bankruptcy, relationship, religion, Jack the Ripper, gender/secondary sex characteristics, the Bodleian, Haworth, Wuthering Heights, Simone de Beauvoir, ‘writer’s block,’ the emptiness, Mastectomy, my … Continue reading
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26 June 2009: absence
Sleepless nights and strange morning-dreams. This free-floating anxiety shot into overdrive with the nurse’s call last night: yet another meeting with the surgeon on 7 July, and nothing to be planned until after. There is always this great sickness in the … Continue reading
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Aubade
I never thought I’d have much in common with Philip Larkin as a 25-year-old woman. I’ve always liked this poem, but lately there are many middles of nights in which it comes to mind and resonates like a train whistle. … Continue reading
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subconscious carcinoma, toasted cheese and poetry
Favourite quotation from an early review of Emily Bronte: “There is an old saying that those who eat toasted cheese at night will dream of Lucifer. The author of Wuthering Heights has evidently eaten toasted cheese.” I didn’t really sleep … Continue reading
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outside interests
“Are you still finding time to do things you enjoy?” “That doesn’t matter.” “Yes, it–” “I don’t care about anything else but getting treatment.” A ‘conversation’ I had with my oncologist, around about the time I learned the second chemo … Continue reading
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